Ako Po Si Chezka

Random Stuff

2008-10-16T02:38:00.002+08:00

K. I haven't updated since forever. :|

Will just post some random stuff. :)

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10 Things I Want Before I Die

1. Visit an orphanage.
2. Receive a love letter.
3. Slow dance.
4. Receive a bouquet of flowers.
5. Get kissed in the rain.
6. Be a preschool teacher even just for a day.
7. Tell my parents how much they mean to me.
8. Witness a miracle.
9. Have a picture at Quadri Park while standing in the middle of the fountain.
10. Get married.

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Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute,
and it seems like an hour.
sit with a pretty girl for an hour,
and it seems like a minute.
that's relativity.
-Albert Einstein

In my opinion, the best thing you can do
Is find a person who loves you
For exactly what you are.
Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome...
What have you, the right person will
Still think the sun shines outta your ass.
That's the kind of person
That's worth sticking with.
-Juno

Ktnxbye. :)

Traumatized

2008-10-04T22:39:00.001+08:00

Seriously.

We were rehearsing for our Sabayang Pagbigkas this afternoon at Tinoco when the weather suddenly became so ugh, scary. I mean, I was seriously not expecting that it would rain really hard today since the wind was very humid and it was very sunny earlier this morning. Well I wasn't really frightened with the rain or stuff... I got super scared of the tornado-ish or whatever you call it thing that happened while we were in the middle of our practice wherein LOTS of leaves started flying and swirling around us and the sky started to be really dark. I wasn't wearing my glasses that time pa, so my blurry vision made things worse for me since I thought that the water droplets caused by the drizzle were dust. So yeah, to make the long story short, I thought the world was about to end because of the tornado-ish scenario with the leaves, darkening of the sky and the "dust" rain that I saw while not wearing my glasses. Stupid, I know. But so far, that was the most traumatizing scenario I've ever seen.

Til now, my skin generates goosebumps whenever I remember what have happened, even though I know that my blurry vision kinda exaggerated what the real scene was. Plus the fact that Ian was like, "Parang bababa na si Jesus Christ ah!". Too bad I was too chickened out that time and I wasn't able to take a video from my phone.

Gawd. Thank God it's all over now. :)

Miguel Victor Flores

2008-10-03T20:07:00.004+08:00

Deym.
Mikey, I hope you know CPR:
Coz baby, you take my breath away.

NYAHAHAHAHA. :))

Durr. Wish granted. ~xD

Lurveyou,beeeetch. :D

This Is A Fight I Refuse To Lose

2008-10-02T18:30:00.002+08:00

It's not a day on the calendar. Not a birthday, not a new year. It's an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope. A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories . . . What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning. But it's also important to remember that amid all the crap . . . are a few things worth holding on to.

I know that this IS a start of something new. :)

...Because I'm Not Okay

2008-10-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

What if Prince Charming had never showed up? Would Snow White have slept in that glass coffin forever? Or would she have eventually woke up, spit out the apple, gotten a job, a health care package & a baby from her local neighbour hood sperm bank? I couldn't help but wonder... inside every confident, driven, single woman, is there a delicate, fragile princess just waiting to be saved?

-Sex and The City

Wakoko

2008-09-18T16:30:00.002+08:00

Dedoks na yata ako kay Mudra. :| :))

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Natutunan ko kay Sir Mabahague:

Do not get attached because if you do, you will suffer when you lose the person. Getting attached is a sign of selfishness. If you can't move on, madami kang baggage. Pag madami kang baggage, you will suffer.

What's In A Name?

2008-09-11T20:52:00.003+08:00

I'm bored, okay?

Rule: List all the names you were called by and the people who calls you that. Tag at least 5 members of your contacts and give a comment on their site for them to know they've been tagged.

♥ If you call me Shekay, you're Ma'am Peppin or some random blockmate who's making fun of my name.
♥ If you call me Che-Che, you're a relative or you're Fyzee Alim.
♥ If you call me Che, you're one of the Mean Girls.
♥ If you call me Ekay, you're one of my softball teammates last semester.
♥ If you call me Chezzy, for sure you're Tranny.
♥ If you call me Chekay, then you're one of my closest blockmates.
♥ If you call me Francesca Mariz B. Guevarra, you're my Mom and it means that you're demanding me to see you ASAP.
♥ If you call me Vivian (Lovers in Paris), you're Tita Amy.
♥ If you call me Genoveva, then you're my Dad/Sister/Granny.
♥ If you call me Tita Sexy, you're one of my two nephews Ish and Kyle.
♥ If you call me Ikang, you're Ninang Beny.
♥ If you call me Anak, you're Ninang Ayang.
♥ If you call me Sissy, then you're Kaizye Carvajal.
♥ If you call me Noreen (from Attic Cat), you're Kuya Dodoy.
♥ If you call me Marimar, you're a TC4E Member.
♥ If you call me Witch Yoo Hee, you're Polithea Albajera.
♥ If you call me Han Chae Young, you're Raymond Glinorfria.
♥ If you call me Marieche, then you're one of my classmates in first year high school.
♥ If you call me Che'kah, then you're a part of my high school clique.
♥ If you call me Cheska Mariz, you're one of the million people who thought this is how my name's correctly spelled.
♥ If you call me Chekatot, you're Neecalog.
♥ If you call me Boses Kiki, you're from 2JRN2.
♥ If you call me Princess Lulu, then you're one of the Ballers.
♥ If you call me Sy, you're either Jason Zulueta or Christopher Dimagmaliw.
♥ If you call me My Girl, you're J.O. Valencia/John Rick Vilog.
♥ If you call me Baby, then you're ..... :P
♥ If you call me Ate Che, then you're Zwetha/Yayan/Azel.
♥ If you call me Mommy Pau, you're Yayan.
♥ If you call me Mommy Ganda, you're Azel.
♥ If you call me My Favorite Ate, you're Azel.
♥ If you call me Jessica, you're from Mindoro.
♥ If you call me Ang Paborito Kong Panganay, you're my Dad.
♥ If you call me Slut, then you're RoseAn Dioquino.
♥ If you call me Koreana, you're Mika Ikemitsu a.k.a. Ms.Haponesa
♥ If you call me Bitch, you're Claire Salvatierra.
♥ If you call me Ganda, you're Ate Valerie Javier.
♥ If you call me Landot, then you're Asson Vegamora.
♥ If you call me PF, you're Klarish.
♥ If you call me Mrs.Garcia, then I'm sure you're Jessica Ricafort.
♥ If you call me Chezka G., you're one of ABSCBN's Teens Acting Class 1 of May 05.
♥ If you call me Yuan Shi Kai, you're Karla Lenina Commanda.

I'm tagging.... ugh, anyone na lang. :P

And oh! Check out my nails, baybeh. :P

The Inconvenient Truth

2008-09-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

Care to change the world?

Attended recollection yesterday... Honestly, it's the first ever reco ever that I've paid serious attention to. I feel enlightened now, seriously.

Heard a bunch of lines which sort of slapped my inner being. One of which goes like you don't need to ask God things that you need because He already knows that; all you have to is to have faith/believe in His kingdom and everything will end well.

Another is the 3 possible answers that God can give when we're asking for something through a prayer. Yes, which means He can grant whatever you're wishing for; No, which means He can't command your request but He will surely give you something better than what you've asked; and Wait, which means you need to wait if he's gonna grant your wish or he'll just prepare something better.

...and seriously, I need to go to church ASAP and confess my dirty deeds. The last time I had confession was like, six years ago if I'm not mistaken.

Will go take some rest now. :)

2008-09-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

Seriously. :|

Last night I've come up with a conclusion that if I'm not going to change my major as soon as possible, I might end up living in hell after graduation.

No, I'm not saying this because a lot of people say that there's no money in Journalism. Nor because I'm getting tired of writing and researching and stuff. It's just that I'm in a stage right now wherein I don't have a grasp of what do I really want in life. I don't know if this course is really the thing for me... I don't even know if I really did the right decision when I allowed my Dad to put in AB Journalism and AB Communication Arts as my choices when I passed my USTET application form a couple of years ago, simply because my parents doesn't want me to take up Fine Arts or Performing Arts.

Seriously, I don't know what I really want to do now. I don't know if I'm gonna continue taking this major because both of my parents and almost my whole family wants me to be a fucking lawyer, or if I'm going to drop this course off and switch to another major and transfer to another university.

The truth is, I'm scared.

I'm scared of failing and not reaching their expectations.

Maybe this is a result of being emotionally abused (I believe I was) when I was still a kiddo, when relatives tease me and make fun of me because I'm not good in Math/not half as good as my sister is/not able to do something well... or to make things short, when I'm not able to meet their expectations.

...their expectations of me to be that excellent in something.

Obviously, that made my childhood a gazillion per cent pain in the ass. Like, you know how it feels when your family, instead of cheering you up and supporting you, are the ones who put you down because to them you're simply not good. And it's your fault.

...it's your fault that you're not that good in Math.

...it's your fault that your sister's a whole lot better than you (or in other words, you were NEVER good.)

...it's your fault that you can't do something, err, make it anything well.

Maybe the real reason why I took up is Journalism because I was in thirst of acceptance. Because I was craving for compliments from them, especially from my Mom. Because I want to experience, at least once in my life, a time wherein my parents can actually say that I've done the right thing and that they are proud of me because I am an obedient daughter... and that they could at least, again even for once, stop comparing me with my sister OR say that I'm better than that bitch. And oh! That at least, again even for once, my Mom's siblings could stop thinking that I'm the black sheep of the family (I remember one time when Tito Erick told my cousin Azel to stay away from me because I'm a very bad kiddo and it's not good to hang out with me, as well as a time when Tito Arman told her daughter [again, Azel] that I'm not a good example, and she should stick to her probinsyana values instead of idolizing me because I'm independent and tough.).

Okay, enough of my childhood please. I might breakdown if I continue elaborating how dramatic it was for me and how I curse my Mom for having favoritism.

Yes I know, what I'm saying is kinda magulo, but I promise things will be clear for you soon. You might be thinking that this is so dramatic. But you don't have any idea on what I feel right now.

...to be continued.

Why do I put myself in these situations?I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all.

2008-09-06T22:02:00.007+08:00

Naiinis ako...

dahil try-outs na bukas for the National Debating Championship.

dahil halos alam na ng lahat na crush ko si [toot].

dahil kung kelan sobrang komplikado, chaka naging legal.

dahil ang gulo ng buhay ko.

Punyeta.

Cheesy Corny Shit.

2008-09-04T18:14:00.002+08:00

You're a dork. :|
-Yes. I'm your dork ;]

WTF. :))

Pumasok ako kanina para lang sa isang subject. Watdapak. Sayang ang P200 na baon, nagastos ko lang. Sana pala ndi na lang ako pumasok. :|

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Nakuha ko to kay Pia. Nakakagago ee. Ang corny daw sabi ni Arturo... Pero bakit ba. Natutuwa ako ee :P Hahaha :))

Boyfriend Application

If you’re a girl, title this "boyfriend application" and if you’re a guy title it "girlfriend application". Repost this and see who’s eligible to be your special someone. Have fun!

Send it back if you think you could get the job :)

BASICS:
Name:
Age:
Location:
Height:
Hair (color and style):
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:

OTHER:
1. Where would we go on dates?
2. Who are three (or more) of your favorite bands/artists?
3. Do you drink/smoke??
4. Do you like the rain?
5. If so...would you play in it with me?
6. Do you like movies?
7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night?
8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together?
9. Would you kiss my forehead
10. Do you play an instrument?
11. If so...what?
12. Would you call me right after we saw each other to make sure i made it home alright?
13. How would you rate your hugs from 1-10?
14. Favorite body part on a girl?
15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself?
16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, slut)?
17. Would you give me kisses just because?

What Would You do if...
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
We got in a fight:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:

What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manners:
Friends:
Decisions:

Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Buy me a birthday gift:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Go out at 4am to get me chocolate:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Keep in touch:
Make me a snack:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Hold me in times of need:
Ditch me:
Use me:
ask me out:
Date me:
kiss with me whenever you had the chance:
Hold me and make my problems go away:

Mr.Right, kung nababasa mo toh, email mo lang ako sa chezka.guevarra@yahoo.com. HAHAHA :)) Echos. :))

KK. Lamon mode :P

Because My Life's A Total Mess

2008-09-03T15:33:00.005+08:00

You know what looks good on you?
What?
Me ;]

I wander through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes
And
Hold on before it's too late
We'll run till we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don't live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real 'til it's gone
So live like you mean it
Love 'til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real 'til it's gone
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

-Before It's Too Late

Note to self: just breathe.

Dear Chez,

2008-09-01T18:02:00.005+08:00

We've been together for seventeen years now. Knowing you, patience is definitely your LAST virtue. I still can't believe how that guys has changed you from a monster, control-freak girlfriend to a trust-worthy and non-demanding one. I know how much you love that bastard, but let me remind you that you have promised yourself a couple of weeks ago that you'll never be that attached because the setup itself between the two of you is more than a million percent pain in the ass.

You don't wanna end up shattering your own heart, right?

But whatevs... It's still up to you if you're gonna listen to me. I'm just giving you a friendly reminder, anyway.

Goodluck, beeyotch.

xo,
Yourself.

PS: Aside from dealing with that LDR drama, you still have a couple of things to think about. Like how the hell are you going to love Mathematics of Finance and if you'll still continue training for the Tomasian Debaters Council. Good thing you don't do drugs and drink, cuz if you do know how to get those poppin', I'm pretty much sure you'll end up in rehab. ^-^

Love Is A Verb Here In My Room

2008-08-31T16:58:00.005+08:00

Coin-operated boy, sitting on the shelf, he is just a toy
But i turn him on and he comes to life, automatic joy
..that is why i want a coin-operated boy
Made of plastic and elastic, he is rugged and long-lasting
Who could ever ever ask for more
..love without complications galore.

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Photofunia is love. <3

Ubos Na Ang Braincells Ko.

2008-08-27T01:51:00.003+08:00

Time check: 01:52AM

Diyos ko.

Baog na baog na ang utak ko. :| Halos alas-dos na ng madaling araw pero gising na gising pa din ako at ginagawa ang bwisit na kung-ano-man-ang-tawag-dito para sa English.

Hay nako, Chezka Mariz Guevarra: naiisip ko na kung paano ka gigisingin ng Nanay mo mamayang alas singko, kung makakatulog ka pa. :))

ptanginangkolehiyoampupu.

Pero ayos lang. I have to keep myself busy.

Arturo Oca, salamat sa words of wisdom.
Aylabyu pordat. :))

Oh My Holy Gulay

2008-08-26T16:29:00.007+08:00

Kinikilabutan ako.

Natatakot ako sa mga pwedeng mangyari.

Ayoko talaga ng Math. :(

Lecheng buhay skwela.

Puro na lang drama. :|

Math.

TDC Training.

National Debate Championship Tryouts.

NatSci.

English Essay.

Si A at si J.

Cram, cram, cram. :|

[PLEASE insert Paracetamol here]

okay. ang nonsense.

Anyhow, magpapagupit na ako sa Sunday ulit. :] Look!

Teka. Ikaw.
Oo, ikaw.
Alam mo na kung sino ka.
Kung ano mang nababasa mo dito, sa atin na lang ok?
Magpromise ka na wala kang idaldal sa sa aking Madir ;]

:D

2008-08-23T18:45:00.003+08:00

&he said, "I will never let you go".

Things are somewhat complicated, but it definitely feels so damn right.

What else do I have to wish for? :)

NOW PLAYING: Personal Angel [by Tank]

I'm Pissed. :|

2008-08-23T18:36:00.001+08:00

Hala sige, isa pa. :|

Nagtitimpi na ako sau. :|

Onti na lang. :|

Ten CONYOmandments. :D

2008-08-20T15:35:00.001+08:00

Sige, kunyari masaya ako ngayon. :|

TEN CONYOMANDMENTS
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by Gerry Avelino and Arik Abu
(taken from The La Sallian-Menagerie)

Conyo here, conyo there, conyo everywhere! Here at La Salle, conyospeak has become an unofficial language as a good chunk of the student body knows, or maybe even mastered the socialite tongue. However, one must never forget the basics of the conyo and we thusly bring you: The Ten Conyomandments.

1. Thou shall make gamit "make+pandiwa".
ex. "Let's make pasok na to our class!"
"Wait lang! I'm making kain pa!"
"Come on na, we can't make hintay anymore! It's in Andrew pa, you know?"

2. Thou shall make kalat "noh", "diba" and "eh" in your pangungusap.
ex. "I don't like to make lakad in the baha nga, no? Eh diba it's like, so eew, diba?"
"What ba: stop nga being maarte noh?"
"Eh as if you want naman also, diba?"

3. When making describe a whatever, always say "It's SO" pang-uri!
ex. "It's so malaki, you know, and so mainit!"
"I know right? So sarap nga, eh!"
"You're making me inggit naman.. I'll make bili nga my own burger."

4. When you are lalaki, make parang punctuation "dude", 'tsong" or "pare"
ex. "Dude, ENGANAL is so hirap, pare."
"I know, tsong, I got bagsak nga in quiz one, eh"

5. Thou shall know you know? I know right!
ex. "My bag is so bigat today, you know"
"I know, right! We have to make dala pa kasi the jumbo Physics book eh!"

6. Make gawa the plural of pangngalans like in English or Spanish.
ex. "I have so many tigyawats, oh!"

7. Like, when you can make kaya, always use like. Like, I know right?
ex. "Like, it's so init naman!"
"Yah! The aircon, it's, like sira!"

8. Make yourself feel so galing by translating the last word of your sentence, you know, your pangungusap?
ex. "Kakainis naman in the LRT! How plenty tao, you know, people?"
"It's so tight nga there, eh, you know, masikip?"

9. Make gamit of plenty abbreviations, you know, daglat?"
ex. "Like, OMG! It's like traffic sa LRT"
"I know right? It's so kaka!"
"Kaka?"
"Kakaasar!"

10. Make gamit the pinakamaarte voice and pronunciation you have para full effect!
ex. "I'm, like, making aral at the Arrhneo!"
"Me naman, I'm from Lazzahl!

LMAO. :D

Farlor Day, Baybeh!

2008-08-19T14:06:00.004+08:00

Pumasok ako ng hindi nakatulog kagabi. :| Oha! Pero hindi naman halata dahil sadyang madaldal at machever ako :P

Dumating ako sa UST mga bandang 5:45AM. Malamang sa malamang, sarado pa yung gate, kaya nagshopping muna ako sa 7-11 at bumili ng...

*drum rolls*

CARELINE PARTY COLORS IN BERRY RED!
[jologs translation: pulang kyutix]

Aylalalalab my naaiiilllss!

Grabe ang ganda. Bumagay sa mala-kuko ng mangkukulam kong kuko ang ma-fuschia na ma-red na nailpolish. Salamat sa mahal kong kaibigan na si Ara Virginia Pader sa paglalagay. :P

...moving on...

Natutuwa ako dahil dalawang oras ako nagayos ng buhok ng mga kaklase ko. Odba, productive? :)) Today is Farlor Day, Baybeh. :P Plancha and manicure galore habang walang prof sa literal na pinaka-nakakatuwang subject sa buong Pilipinas, ang Christian Ethics [insert one million sarcasmSSSS here]!

Pero syempre, mas natutuwa ako para sa prenship kong si Iska Commanda. Parang kagabi lang, chumever ako ng comment sa blog nya, at sinabing alam kong kaya nyang makapasa sa Thomasian Writers Guild. At ayun, may taga TWG na chumever sa room kanina at pinaalam kay Iskalicious ang uber good news... Masaya ako dahil hindi na sya magshi-shift sa Nursing, pero mas masaya ako dahil ibig sabihin hindi na sya mawawala sa block namin at ibig sabihin nun maayusan ko na sya ng buhok palagi!

...pero may isa pang nakakatuwa sa TWG na yan.

Hindi nakapasa si [toot].

Buti nga! HAHAHA :))
omeyged Chezka, yer so maldita. :| :))

Pero sabi nga nila, hindi lahat masaya. *sob sob sob*

Nalulungkot ako... Nalulungkot ako dahil galit sya sa akin. :( Lagi ko na lang syang nilalayasan pagka-chat ko sya (eh susmaryosep pag kausap ko naman kasi sya antagal nya magreply). Pero ndi, nagi-guilty ako. Lagi syang andyan para sa akin, at labidabs na labidabs nya daw ako. Pero pakiramdam ko sumobra na ako ngayon. :|

...kaya Jason Shen, kung nababasa mo man toh. Goodluck kung maintindihan mo toh (hindi sya marunong magTagalog, mygehd. isipin nyo na lang ang hirap ko pag kausap ko sya). :))

But seriously...

SOOOORRRY. :((

Jason, I know I've kinda hurt you for a couple of times now by not waiting for your reply and just signing out whenever we talk via MSN. I know I'm so fcking rude. And I'm so sorry for that. :( I promise I'll make it up to you. PROMISE. *pinky swear* :) And I'm gonna miss talking to you when you get back to Canada. :(

Oshet. Nosebleed. :| :))

Ok. Dinner time now. :D

Bagong Bahay. :D

2008-08-18T21:39:00.001+08:00

Napapagod na ako.

Pagod na pagod na ako sa biglaang pagkawala ng blog, pag-apply sa bagong host, pagaayos ng links, pressure na magbloghop para hindi magmukhang kawawa ang subdomain na walang comments at lalong-lalo na ang walang kamatayang pagre-revamp ng site.

Goodbye Wordpress, Hello Blogspot. :]

Mga Hello-Goodbye moments nga naman.

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Magta-tatlong linggo na nga pala kaming hiwalay ni ex-labidabs, at natutuwa naman ako dahil kahit papano ay masaya na ako.

Masaya ako dahil kahit papano, nakakapag-move on na ako.
Masaya ako dahil napatunayan ko ng kaya kong mabuhay ng wala sya.
At masaya ako dahil ang dami kong kalandian ngayon *evil laugh*

Madami akong natutunan, sobra.

Salamat na din siguro sa words of wisdom ng isa ko pang ex-boylet.

At mas maraming salamat sa mga prenships ko sa walang sawang pakikinig nila sa mga drama ng buhay ko.

Alam kong madami pang darating.

...at madami pang mangyayari.

That's why I have to live life to the fullest. :]

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Anyhow...

Omaypakingsyet. Ilang quizzes na ba ang hindi ko nasasagutan sa NSTP? 3? 4? Lintek.

..at ano? may quiz bukas sa History at prelims sa Computer? OMEYPEKINGDEYM. :|